I screwed up.

What am I doing... What have I been doing. When I saw my results, I felt so worried for myself. I probably half expected it though. I did not realise I was playing with my future. That could have decided what I did for the rest of my life. If it had just been abit worse, I would have really screwed up big time.

People in my position, not being able to get their first choice, may choose to curse and to question God. We are always told to give thanks to God no matter what happens. I never really got that feeling before, to give thanks even though something bad has happened. This would really be a test of our faith.