I don't believe in Santa!

I hate getting sick during festive seasons. Ugh.

I screwed up.

What am I doing... What have I been doing. When I saw my results, I felt so worried for myself. I probably half expected it though. I did not realise I was playing with my future. That could have decided what I did for the rest of my life. If it had just been abit worse, I would have really screwed up big time.

People in my position, not being able to get their first choice, may choose to curse and to question God. We are always told to give thanks to God no matter what happens. I never really got that feeling before, to give thanks even though something bad has happened. This would really be a test of our faith.

♥ reading

Now that I am sort of packing to go back to singapore. I have started reading all the storybooks that I have brought over since the start of the year. Every time I go back to singapore, I bring back like 3 storybooks, so now I have about 9 storybooks? Finished a few last week, am now on the last book. Haha I love thriller and mystery stories!! I love reading, sad that I have not read many storybooks this year. But I am glad that my reading speed is more or less the same. I would hate it if I suddenly slowed down... Sooo, right not I like jeffrey archer, james rollin and andy mcdermott. I do not like dan brown anymore, I felt that his latest book was really boring and tedious to read.

I wonder how good authors are able to make their readers get so into their stories. Is it just some really good well-chosen words that describe the scene and what is happening, or is it having a good plot, a great storyline for the reader to delve into. It is probably a combination of both right? Plus our ability to imagine stuff. I think our imagination makes all the difference. Reading a scientific journal is in no way, in my opinion, same as reading a book like "Twilight". I could fall asleep easily, reading boring stuff like journals, while I could hardly ever fall asleep without at least completing the chapter of the storybook I am on. We probably have more to imagine when we read stories as compared to when we just read facts or reports of other people's experiments etc. So does having a good imagination mean we can get more from a storybook? I don't think so. Like I said before, the combination of good words and a great plot make up for all our lack of imagination. I am not a very creative person, so actually, my imagination kinda sucks. But when I read, I can still imagine stuff, this I would say is the skill of the author.

It is so often that we watch a movie that is based on a book and after we have watched the movie, most of the time we say, "The book was better." The stuff we make up in our minds are probably how we want the story to look like. This I would say, is undoubtedly different from person to person. Just like how no two people have the same fingerprint, I am sure you would agree that the imagination of any two people would never be absolutely identical. Hence, what we make up in our mind will never be the same as what we see on screen. So how do we make a comparison as to which is better? Well, too bad, I don't think we can. The movie was probably based on the imagination of many other people, the director, the script writer, the actors who read the script etc. In our mind, everything goes the way we want it to be, we set the standard. The movie then hardly ever lives up to the book as everything gets all muddled up by all the different ideas.

I just misplaced my storybook! Shit, gotto find it.

Smile!

Went to brighton beach today. Been going to many places like everyday. Mostly with family. Mummy, daddy are here so we've been driving to like dandenong and yarra valley etc. Weather today wasn't bad, caught abit of sun. We took alot of pictures! It's so fun. We had 2 film cameras and kj's dslr. Still sad that I lost my s90 though...

Can't wait to go back singapore now! I want to eat good food and get fat :). Things I am not looking forward to: having no maid for ONE WHOLE WEEK, cutting my hair for NS next year, the rain in singapore. That's all I can think of at the moment.

My room is still in mess. Only got round to packing all the academic stuff away.

That's it.

So this is the end of my academic year. School ends officially next week at valedictory. Going to miss melbourne so much :(. Once I leave on 8 Dec I would not be coming back for two years. How I wish I could just stay here. Psych exam today was not that bad, people were saying it was harder than the old one. I did not find this one hard... If only I studied for the first exam, my psych mark could have been 90+%...

Strangely, even though I do not have to study for the next two years, I do not feel very liberated. What is wrong with me? I should be like over the moon.

Now the next big task is moving back to Singapore. Like literally moving all my things in melbourne back to Singapore. This is going to be hell. I look around my room and wish my maid was here. Half eaten chocolate next to my com, messy bed on my left, broken pencil on my table, pile of clothes on top of my drawer... The list goes on.

Wish I had a teleport machine and I could just teleport everything back. I wonder if a teleport machine would ever be invented. It would be so fun, if someone was late for a meeting I could just teleport to their house and rush them. Or I could teleport home in the middle of lecture to take a nap. The possibilities are endless.

And I lost my fricking camera and iPod. Not sure if it dropped out of my bag or someone stole it in the library. Haha, that is what I get for working hard and going to the library to study. HAS ANYONE SEEN A BLACK CAMERA AND IPOD????!!! IT'S MINE!

I am going to own Psych.

Chocolate.

Maths2 exam is tomorrow and I am so nervous. I really hope I can do well, my last exam didn't go very well, so hopefully this would be much better. I should be studying now, but I procrastinate the moment I come home... Being at home is just so unproductive for me, I always find something else to do. Only 2 things that I can think of that I don't do, studying and cleaning my room.

Shit it's close to 10pm. Still got to call people to ask maths2 questions.

Four more days.

Four more days till the end of exams! Mummy and daddy are here, so we're probably going to go to many places after my last paper on Friday. Haha, Sydney?

My exam schedule is super tiring, had 4 papers in a row last week, had chemistry yesterday and going to have Maths2 and Psych on Thursday and Friday... After every paper I just come home and sleep for like four hours. Always feel so drained. Well official end of trinity is in just over a week! Going to miss melbourne so much especially since I got NS. Oh wells...

Alright going library to STARDEE. Ciao!

Almost done here.

I hope I don't screw up my final exams. I've been so lazy. Doing everything besides studying. Got lots of work to catch up on, got to work like crazy. Can't believe trinity is ending so fast, in exactly a months time actually. Worst part is I'm going back for NS. Going to miss melbourne and all my friends. Wish I could just skip NS since I know I'm not going to be doing anything worthwhile due to my pes status.

So the trinity prom was last Friday. It was not really good I guess. The food was really bad haha, I think most of my table didn't touch the food at all. People were saying it was like airplane food. Worst part I think was the prom king. I just wonder who was the judge. Ah well, it'll be an unbelievable story to tell. Although to me it wasn't such a great night, I'm sure we'll all look back on this next time as it is the last time the whole trinity batch is gathered together (not counting when we gather for our exams). Our time is priceless. AND I can't seem to upload pictures here, so head over to facebook for the pictures. Didn't take much though :( I got my new camera!! It's a canon s90. Love it.

Happy Birthday Tsang!

It Ends Tonight

Stayed in the city today, went to a korean place for dinner with jiejie, kj, shuanne, shuhuei, shuanne's friend, kj's brother and kj's brother's girlfriend. Can't remember the name of the place, but it was really good. Then we wanted to watch "Mao's last dancer" but there were no seats :( In the end, we walked like the whole of melbourne. we were looking for a bar without a bouncer where huei and I could get into haha. Finally found a bar called "trunk" which also served food, so we said we just wanted to eat and went in. I had dessert, ordered a pavlova, it was super sweet! Came home quite early(?) I guess. About 11.30.

Going to tulip farm tomorrow, then cell group :)

do you not get what I'm asking?

Coming back to Melbourne, going back to school felt okay. Aside from the really shitty results which I am getting back this week and the fact that I have to hand up a presentation plan by tomorrow, I find that I am enjoying myself, getting into the swing of things again. Really dreading that in just two more months I'm going to have to go back to Singapore for two whole years... I wish I could stay in Melbourne and continue studying, screw NS... This school term is going to be really short, over in just five weeks! wth right.

These are my new earphones, omg they are awesome!!!!!!!!!!

blogogogog

Well, my pretty long holiday in Singapore is coming to an end. Gotto go back to Melbourne to the horrors that await. I already know what to expect for my maths2 results. On a happier note, I can't wait to go back and meet my trinity friends, my cell group. Can't believe I missed so many outings in Melbourne while I was in Singapore :(

But meeting the friends in Singapore and spending time with my parents were fantastic. Don't know which I miss more, Singapore when I'm in Melbourne or Melbourne when I'm in Singapore.

Going to eat seafood tonight with just my parents, HAHAHA CHILLI CRAB!

I'll continue on Sunday.

could I get the time? Oh, it's 120bpm.

2 sticks and a pad.

unsure.

I feel so lethargic, it's 4.30am, I'm at about 1700 words on my lit essay and I haven't slept. Going to school in about 5 hours. This term is so screwed up. I've literally stayed up all night the night before any essay is due trying to complete it. I have no idea what's wrong with me, I hope I don't screw up really badly.

A child has died in the time it took to load this page.

So today was the first day I went to collect donations for the 40 hours of famine thing that my cell is doing. When you are the one that is collecting the donations, it really makes you wonder what is so hard about giving money to the less fortunate. On the other hand, sadly I can imagine myself thinking the total opposite if someone approaches me like that. I have never really felt how it feels when you are collecting donations for a good cause and people make jokes and all (I have probably never taken anything of this sort seriously till now), not that I find it insulting.

I think it has to do with just our culture, we are hardly ever taught to give a thought to people on other continents who are needy (not saying that there are no needy people in our country), we just think that they are too far away and it is none of our business. We are all the same species, we all have the same basic biology, we are all humans. It is really sad to think that there are people in the world who go to bed hungry every night and when it is not their fault that they are in such an unfortunate position. Stories i feel most impacted by are parents who have to choose which of their children would eat today and which ones would eat tomorrow. Imagine your parents telling you that you cannot eat today and that it is your turn tomorrow. That would suck right?

So my cell group will give up furniture this weekend. Unfortunately I can't join them as I would be in Sydney. I would probably do it when I come back next week and when I am totally not sick anymore.

behind time

So due to me being sick last week (and I'm still sick now), I've got an extension for my HOI essay till this Thursday. Unfortunately, I just started writing it and haven't really thought much about it. My nose is still killing me, I've used so much tissue, I can't even start to think seriously about doing work. I just feel like sleeping.

Instead of thinking about my essay, I'm thinking about skipping my first class tomorrow as my friend just told me it's a waste of time and it's super boring. Haha I just might skip it if I don't wake up in time.

Really should be working on my essay instead of blogging.

psych made me sick.

Really, I think the lack of sleep from doing my hoi essay totally caused me being sick now. I feel so horrible, physically I mean. I'm coughing like crazy, my nose is all red and my throat hurts like hell. It's so bad I had to get an extension for my hoi essay :) but I still went to school today, can't stand ah, I'm so dedicated haha.

So drama performance is going to be okay I hope... the rehearsals so far went okay in my opinion, don't know about the rest though. Can you believe we are forced to do drama over here in melbourne!

Feel so sick now, I think I'll just go to bed and hopefully forget to wake up for drama practice. If anybody from my drama group sees this, I'm just kidding :)

Next weekend, I'm going to sydney. And hopefully the weekend after next I can go snowboarding if mummy lets me. CAN'T WAIT

PSYCH

It's 9.30pm now. Feels really late already. Still doing my psychology essay. Have 385 words INCLUDING REFERENCES (I have alot of references), so dead. My table is a mess, my bed is also a mess with all my sources on it. Essay is due in less that 24 hours marcus, stop blogging.

i want to know you more.

Psych essay. Due Monday. 1200 words. Haven't started. Been reading 20+ sources.

HOI essay. Due next friday. Only read the question.

God, I so need you right now.

Heh, I want this! Leica d-lux 4 :)

addicted

Just got back from cell, finally found the time to blog, at last!

I love snowboarding!! Just wish I could go every weekend. Only thing stopping me are essays.... I am so behind my work, marcus, faster start doing work. So last weekend, went to Mt. Hotham which was damn fun!! Snowboarding is just better than skiing, it's such a different feeling. Fell like crazy though, I think my ass had blue blacks. Hopefully going at least one more time this year. I bought all my ski gear! No need to rent anymore :) And I love my outfit, it's so easy to spot me.

So jiejie, kj, shuanne and I went up the mountain, sadly shuhuei couldn't go, as I mentioned previously, she was sick! Thank God she didn't have swine flu. It was super fun, there were alot of other trinity people up there too, counting me, there's like four groups I think. Met tsang, peiwen and peiqi on saturday, then they stayed over cos we had dinner till quite late, we played card games and all. For poker we used monopoly money haha. It's so good to have steamboat up the mountain, we freeze outside and then go inside and it's so warm. Went up for two days, but only snowboarded for one day, it was raining on sunday, so we decided to leave the mountain and go visit a winery. Wasn't such a bad idea I think, the snow would have been really hard that day haha. Now some pictures to liven up my blog:

ALL OF US

Only mel isn't looking at the camera :)

Isn't my jacket and pants so cool!

Last pic on the mountain.

Damn I want to go for another ski trip like right now. CAN'T WAIT.

LET'S GO AGAIN OKAY?!