I don't believe in Santa!

I hate getting sick during festive seasons. Ugh.

I screwed up.

What am I doing... What have I been doing. When I saw my results, I felt so worried for myself. I probably half expected it though. I did not realise I was playing with my future. That could have decided what I did for the rest of my life. If it had just been abit worse, I would have really screwed up big time.

People in my position, not being able to get their first choice, may choose to curse and to question God. We are always told to give thanks to God no matter what happens. I never really got that feeling before, to give thanks even though something bad has happened. This would really be a test of our faith.

♥ reading

Now that I am sort of packing to go back to singapore. I have started reading all the storybooks that I have brought over since the start of the year. Every time I go back to singapore, I bring back like 3 storybooks, so now I have about 9 storybooks? Finished a few last week, am now on the last book. Haha I love thriller and mystery stories!! I love reading, sad that I have not read many storybooks this year. But I am glad that my reading speed is more or less the same. I would hate it if I suddenly slowed down... Sooo, right not I like jeffrey archer, james rollin and andy mcdermott. I do not like dan brown anymore, I felt that his latest book was really boring and tedious to read.

I wonder how good authors are able to make their readers get so into their stories. Is it just some really good well-chosen words that describe the scene and what is happening, or is it having a good plot, a great storyline for the reader to delve into. It is probably a combination of both right? Plus our ability to imagine stuff. I think our imagination makes all the difference. Reading a scientific journal is in no way, in my opinion, same as reading a book like "Twilight". I could fall asleep easily, reading boring stuff like journals, while I could hardly ever fall asleep without at least completing the chapter of the storybook I am on. We probably have more to imagine when we read stories as compared to when we just read facts or reports of other people's experiments etc. So does having a good imagination mean we can get more from a storybook? I don't think so. Like I said before, the combination of good words and a great plot make up for all our lack of imagination. I am not a very creative person, so actually, my imagination kinda sucks. But when I read, I can still imagine stuff, this I would say is the skill of the author.

It is so often that we watch a movie that is based on a book and after we have watched the movie, most of the time we say, "The book was better." The stuff we make up in our minds are probably how we want the story to look like. This I would say, is undoubtedly different from person to person. Just like how no two people have the same fingerprint, I am sure you would agree that the imagination of any two people would never be absolutely identical. Hence, what we make up in our mind will never be the same as what we see on screen. So how do we make a comparison as to which is better? Well, too bad, I don't think we can. The movie was probably based on the imagination of many other people, the director, the script writer, the actors who read the script etc. In our mind, everything goes the way we want it to be, we set the standard. The movie then hardly ever lives up to the book as everything gets all muddled up by all the different ideas.

I just misplaced my storybook! Shit, gotto find it.

Smile!

Went to brighton beach today. Been going to many places like everyday. Mostly with family. Mummy, daddy are here so we've been driving to like dandenong and yarra valley etc. Weather today wasn't bad, caught abit of sun. We took alot of pictures! It's so fun. We had 2 film cameras and kj's dslr. Still sad that I lost my s90 though...

Can't wait to go back singapore now! I want to eat good food and get fat :). Things I am not looking forward to: having no maid for ONE WHOLE WEEK, cutting my hair for NS next year, the rain in singapore. That's all I can think of at the moment.

My room is still in mess. Only got round to packing all the academic stuff away.